"Whether he's planned, or not
Whether she is 3 months early, or ten years late
Whether he has a young mom, or a surrogate
Whether shes through IVF, or adoption
Whether she has special needs, or a lot of needs
Whether his family is close by, or far away
Whether she learns one language, or two
However it happens EVERY baby is a little miracle".
(our little miracle)
I must say hearing that little saying for the first time was so cute. Well if you haven't heard already Christian and I are expecting a baby. That's right... A BABY. When I first found out, I didn't cry or anything. I was just more in a shock I was more scared then anything. Christian had no clue what to even do or say when I told him, he just hugged me and smiled.(: After a few minutes it still didn't hit me that I Tosha Nester was carrying a little human life inside her. It is the most explainable feeling for me.
Hmm well of course I was scared about telling our families. Why? Well.. I didn't know how any of them would react, I had some what of an idea on how some of them would act, but not all. I told my mom first which may seem like a shock to some people, because I know a few people who wouldn't have even thought about telling there mom first. She took it rather well which made me really happy. Shes always been so supportive in her own little way. :] I'm excited that our families are supportive and some may just be as excited as we are.
I am 6 weeks and 5 days today. Well at least that's what we were told.. I seem to feel a little further then they say, but who knows. Our baby's due date, well estimated due date is September 10th. We plan on not knowing the sex of the baby until it is born. Why? Well because this baby was a surprise from the start and I love surprises, so not knowing the sex of our baby just makes it that much more fun for us. From the time I found out up to yesterday I have been feeling so sick! Until last night when I downloaded a pregnancy app that gave me some tips on morning sickness and guess what... I did what it said and I felt great today! :D it was awesome!
I hear that these next nine month are going to go by so slow.. but then I also hear that they will go by so fast. What ever the case I'm not worried about how fast or slow time goes, I am just going to live in the moment and remember every feeling I get while being pregnant because in my eyes this is all happening for a reason. I know some people think that I may be to young, but I just don't feel that way. I know I have a whole life ahead of me, but this is the life and the path I chose to go down and I don't see it as a bad path. I love my life and everything that has been happening in it. This baby isn't ruining any of my "plans" the baby is the one who gave me different, if not better plans. I had an awesome friend tell me something that made so much sense.. she told me "Age in my eyes never really matters, It is how mature that person is." I feel that this baby is such a blessing and no one could ever change my mind about it. I've come to realize that our baby just makes me that much more happier. I am so excited!
but for now I must find some more pickles..;]
