13 weeks! Yes, you read that right.!

                  Yes! I am 13 weeks and 2 days today! How am i for sure this time? Well.. I had a doctors appointment! FINALLY! and it was awesome! First things first i must show you!.. 

                                          (That right there.. is OUR BABY!)

                    Baby was moving so much! It didn't want to sit still! Kicking and jumping around in there.. it was so cute! and so awesome to see! Also there is only 1 baby in there, sorry Maggie ;P. Everything on the ultra sound was good, heartbeat and everything. :D That was awesome news to hear! 
                Well, the doctors was fun. We have a mid-wife and her name is Megan! She is really nice and says things how it is. Which will always be a plus, so if something is going on she won't be "around the bush" if you will. Its amazing how many questions come up when your sitting in the doctor office. The baby is measuring 13 weeks and 2 days like i said so, my due date has been changed from the 10th of September to the 1st of September. (; give err take. Its all up to the baby when it wants to come into this world! Oh! but that reminds me, I was reading that the baby  has already decided on the day it wants to be born. Isnt that so crazy!!? The baby this week will be developing its vocal cords. It can already open and close its fist, kick, move around, and make mommy sick ;)
                 This week i have been soooo hungry! Only I can't keep anything down, once again. I defiantly can't eat any chicken what so ever! Everytime i do, it comes right back up. So i have come to the conclusion that baby doesn't like chicken :p My weight this week is 136.6 <--- i was shocked when i seen that number! I have lost weight! but not to worry.. i have plenty of time to gain weight -__- haha. My belly is popped. Well yes, it was showing before but it looked more like i ate too much of everything. :p It still hasn't hit me that i am going to be a mom! I think about it all the time, but it is just so unreal and exciting. I don't have time for it to hit me because i'm just so excited all the time:P. Cravings this week.. well i think i have been really wanting some Doritos! Not just like regular Doritos, but the ones that were like the level of hottness.. and of course they discontinued them -__- i hate when company's do that! Its TORTURE! D: Other then that everything with me is going goood!
                 I just thought that i should throw this in here since its my blog.
ONE: I take marriage and children VERY seriously and it really bothers me when i hear people say that people my age don't take stuff like this seriously. this is LIFE CHANGING, of course people take it seriously. So unless your God, you have no right to judge the way people's life is, and the choices they are making. 


TWO: Don't look at me different or treat me any different because I'm pregnant. Last time i checked i am still the same person!(:


THREE: THIS IS NOT A TREND that people just choose to do. So NO I'm not part of a "trend" everything that is happening was a totally surprise that was very much welcomed. (:


             Well that's all for this week. I will be updating my blogs on Saturdays now since every Saturday i will be another week further :]
               
             

11 weeks!

     Week 11! Woohoo! Getting close to my second trimester, the one i hear the most about! ;). 
For those of you who don't know what a fig is it is a fruit that is like a dark purple and is like 'orangiee' in the middle.

          Our 11 week picture together! Note that i had been asleep since i got off work so ignore my not so 'cute' look!;) Well i'm looking forward to this week! The baby is going to be growing like a weed this week! Baby is supposed to double in size by next week! :D. Well a lot has happened in this past week! well for starters I got engaged! ;D and the ring fits like a glove! Christian truly is the most amazing man in the whole entire world! I'm so excited to spend the rest of my life with him and more! We don't have an official plan for our wedding just yet! but i will keep everyone posted! Some more exciting news i got i'm not going to share until next week, but my family all knows.(:

---> Proposal Video Link (this is the link to watch christian's proposal!)





     I haven't been having any cravings, its actually been a challenge for me to eat, because everything 'healthy' that i would want to eat just wont stay down and nothing ever sounds good! It is really amazing that when you are pregnant how your appetite changes. I thought that when i seen pregnant women and had been around them they were so lucky, because they got to eat whatever they wanted oh was i so wrong! Everything that you would usually enjoy just doesn't sound that great and its a challenge to eat certain things. I've given up soda 100% and thankfully i haven't "craved" it since! I do have a sip of a sprite once in a while just so it will settle my stomach, but even then i can't drink the whole thing or even half! Lately I feel like I have been having panic attacks. I just seem to get really scared for no reason at all and just feel like i need to get outta the house. I was reading about it in my pregnancy book and it says that it is actually quite normal to get scared feelings while your pregnant strange i know! Sleeping is getting to be more of a challenge even though this is just the beginning. I wake up in the middle of the night to use the restroom and then i can't seem to go back to sleep for another hour to and hour and a half! Its so strange. I'm defiantly looking into the whole  pregnancy pillow things because those things looks comfortable! My mood swings.. hmm well they are still as bad as ever :P. I have made the choice that if my insurance hasn't called by Wednesday that i am going to schedule my doctors appointment anyway so i can confirm how far i actually am! (; even though the doctors will cost a fortune, i can't wait any longer! 


        Well i am getting distracted from Harry Potter :p so i guess its time to go finish watching this movie and take a shower. So glad i am off tomorrow! LAZY DAY HERE I COME! ;D 

10 weeeks! ;D

                     (Everyone just bare with us on our lighting and camera situation ;) We plan on changing it up next week!) 

                   Well today i feel ten times more self conscious than ever. sO go ahead say it because i am thinking the same thing. How can i be this big for 10 weeks?  I feel like a balloon and that i just have a chubby belly not a pregnant one! Blah! I don't think that my stomach has ever looked this big! I feel SO moody lately its like never ending! So looking forward to a happy non irritated mood lol. My hormones are just running wild!




                                                                 




                   I am ten weeks today! ;D I get so excited when i know i am another week further. It is so exciting! Baby must know when it is becoming a week older because every Sunday i have thrown up even if i haven't thrown up that whole week! HA. I'm craving a lot of egg rolls and mac and cheese and i am starting to feel more comfortable eating instead of being scared of throwing it up. Some food that i can't even think about eating like ever again..Pizza or Hot wings! YUCK! Baby is 1 and a half inches long and the baby no longer had webbed feet or fingers it is moving a lot now and the spine is completely visible! Granted this is all from reading since i haven't been able to get into a doctor yet! D: I swear this waiting game for the doctor is horrible! Whenever anyone gets make sure you have insurance to cover you, so you don't have to wait to get it! I have also been feeling a little "itchy" everyone who has been pregnant know exactly what i mean by what has been itchy! It is bothering me so bad! I guess i better Google how to make it all better! 
               Christian has been such a great support he really has been there for me whenever i need him and puts up with my random mood swings. He is the best <3. We noticed Harley (the dog) has picked up quite an appetite! Every time i come home he eats, when im in the living room he eats, when i am in the kitchen he eats. LOL. I like to think he is doing the sympathy eating :) I'm looking forward to this next week to see what all happens next! :D 


Until next time!

9 Weeks!

           

                  Well here i am at nine weeks! Well at least that is what we are going by from when we went to "Planned Parenthood". Yes, i know my belly looks huge for nine weeks, but we still aren't for sure if i am a hundred percent nine weeks, or even if there is just one in there for that matter! ;)  We haven't been to the real doctor yet, still waiting for insurance to go through! I'm getting anxious here!(:

                                                               (Christian at nine weeks;) )

                                                                      

                                                   ( I thought this was such a cute picture! Baby at nine weeks)

             All these cute little pictures I get like the one above is all from the internet just so everyone knows(:
  I didn't notice how big i actually was until Christian started taking pictures! Let me tell you.. I suddenly became self conscious LOL. But i'm the one who is all excited for my belly so bring it on! 
                Hmm.. Lately I have been craving chicken nuggets, not like fast food chicken nuggets but the Tyson chicken nuggets you buy at the store! Im still amazed that i am craving such a horrible food.. since Tracy (Christians mom) told me how they make them! It is so disgusting! I weighed myself and surprisingly I am at the same weight even though i feel a thousand pounds more then i was! I feel so much more hungry now! I eat, and then 3 or 4 hours later I feel like I'm dying of starvation! So far the toughest part is eating something healthy that actually sounds yummy, but i am really trying my hardest! I haven't really been craving anything too "weird" everything i usually want to eat is things that i have always ate before, but i will defiantly keep everyone posted if something "weird" does come up! I feel much more irritable with people! I can't believe it. Hopefully that passes soon, because i hate feeling so irritated with people :P. I haven't been feeling to sick I feel like my energy is starting to come back and i hadn't thrown up in a few days so i have been feeling better! But then of course.. Today I had to wake up super early like 4 in the morning early and it seems like baby hates when i wake up that early because that is when i feel the worst tired and nauseated once again. Baby is going to be just like its momma.. not a morning person ;) 
                  So far the only thing that I have bought for my baby is this cute picture frame! It reminded me of all the little pictures my Grandma has of all the kids, so i had to buy it. Plus it was on sale! Christian has bought 2 packages of diapers! :D He is the greatest! Oh! and I bought my first maternity shirt! I know, I know I'm not that far along but I needed some looser fitting shirts! Plus.. it was on sale! 
                  Well that is all for this week now time to relax with Christian since it is his "lazy" day! ;) and its my FRIDAY! :D Hope everyone has an awesome week! 

Baby?

"Whether he's planned, or not

Whether she is 3 months early, or ten years late

Whether he has a young mom, or a surrogate

Whether shes through IVF, or adoption

Whether she has special needs, or a lot of needs

Whether his family is close by, or far away

Whether she learns one language, or two

However it happens EVERY baby is a little miracle".

                                             (our little miracle) 

                                                                             

 I must say hearing that little saying for the first time was so cute. Well if you haven't heard already Christian and I are expecting a baby. That's right... A BABY. When I first found out, I didn't cry or anything. I was just more in a shock I was more scared then anything. Christian had no clue what to even do or say when I told him, he just hugged me and smiled.(: After a few minutes it still didn't hit me that I Tosha Nester was carrying a little human life inside her. It is the most explainable feeling for me.

    Hmm well of course I was scared about telling our families. Why? Well.. I didn't know how any of them would react, I had some what of an idea on how some of them would act, but not all. I told my mom first which may seem like a shock to some people, because I know a few people who wouldn't have even thought about telling there mom first. She took it rather well which made me really happy. Shes always been so supportive in her own little way. :] I'm excited that our families are supportive and some may just be as excited as we are. 

    I am 6 weeks and 5 days today. Well at least that's what we were told.. I seem to feel a little further then they say, but who knows. Our baby's due date, well estimated due date is September 10th. We plan on not knowing the sex of the baby until it is born. Why? Well because this baby was a surprise from the start and I love surprises, so not knowing the sex of our baby just makes it that much more fun for us.  From the time I found out up to yesterday I have been feeling so sick! Until last night when I downloaded a pregnancy app that gave me some tips on morning sickness and guess what... I did what it said and I felt great today! :D it was awesome!

              I hear that these next nine month are going to go by so slow.. but then I also hear that they will go by so fast. What ever the case I'm not worried about how fast or slow time goes, I am just going to live in the moment and remember every feeling I get while being pregnant because in my eyes this is all happening for a reason. I know some people think that I may be to young, but I just don't feel that way. I know I have a whole life ahead of me, but this is the life and the path I chose to go down and I don't see it as a bad path. I love my life and everything that has been happening in it. This baby isn't ruining any of my "plans" the baby is the one who gave me different, if not better plans. I had an awesome friend tell me something that made so much sense.. she told me "Age in my eyes never really matters, It is how mature that person is." I feel that this baby is such a blessing and no one could ever change my mind about it. I've come to realize that our baby just makes me that much more happier. I am so excited!

 but for now I must find some more pickles..;]

Time.

             Time?  Seems like it is always going by so fast, or too slow, right?

We  worry so much about time instead of living in the moment.

Today I was thinking about all the time that has gone by and all the memories i have of all my friends, family. Its so amazing how time can either make people or break people. I mean the relationships that you have with your friends and family change over time, maybe when you were younger you didn't have a good relationship with someone in your family and as you get older all the sudden your closer? Or maybe it is vice versa, maybe someone you were close with ends up being a stranger. I am thankful for all the moments i have got to spend with the people that have been in my life. I often say "time is going to slow" but my new years resolution is to just live in every moment good or bad. This is my life and i need to start cherishing every moment i have in it <3. 

This year is going to rock! 2011 brought in so many changes in my life i am totally ready to see what 2012 has in store for me and Christian!

Hope Everyone has an awesome New Year! and enjoys every moment in your life as well!

Well got to go, Four  in the morning comes early, especially when you got to go to work! But for now i am going to spend time with the most amazing boyfriend in the whole entire world. :D (did i mention it is his birthday tomorrow) :) 

GOODNIGHT! 

The year of Eighteen.

3 more days, that's all just three more and i will become another year older. Kind of exciting I think nineteen will be the last year of being in the "teens" so i will defiantly be living up the last "teen" year of my life ;) with Chris of course! :D The second I turned eighteen i actually felt older! Never before have I actually felt older on my birthday except my eighteenth birthday. When I turned eighteen I knew my life would be changing. I honestly took in all of my Senior year, I enjoyed everything i did that year. When you turn eighteen you just know that now you really have to grow up and start getting your life on track (if you haven't started already). I knew when i turned eighteen that Graduation would be right around the corner and i would no longer be going to High School, all my friends would be going away to College and starting their new lives. I knew that some of my close friends would become distant, something i HOPED would never happen, but then of course it did. After Graduation I could already feel everyone drifting away from each other, I knew then that things would never be the same. I did do a lot at eighteen though I mean i finally got my license, finally bought a car, finally moved out, and then finally moved out of that old town of Mesquite, Nevada. Out of all my friends i was the last to move out of that town, yes i said move out of that town not the last to go visit there (: When i moved to Oregon it never really hit me that everything i once knew and all the great times my friends and i had in that town were now just old memories that we would occasionally bring up. Its only been about 2 months since I moved away from that town and it feels like years! All there is in that town is my loving family and a bunch of old memories. I must say being eighteen has been such a blast of excitement and new things. I have always gone through everything that has happened in the past year once my birthday is coming up and thinking back on this year it still amazes me how much happened! I still havent realized that all my friends are a hundred miles away, still haven't realized that I am actually living in Oregon and plan to stay here, it all feels like a dream.  Tons of emotions when i think about the past year of my life, eighteen was fun, but who knows maybe nineteen will be better ;) until next timee.